I think it may be the latter. I am departing from my usual technophile view of sorts and taking a introspective look at some things that have been on my mind. A lot has changed over the past few years, frankly, over last six months or so. It has been a rapid fire of change and I guess that is what life is all about: CHANGE.
Home ownership, bills, working a lot, puppy, more bills, working around the house… It feels like I barely have time to breathe most of the time. I guess that is what life is about, the next phase in a way. Less time for friends, less time for family, building my own family, my own life. Not being in college anymore is a total departure from what I have been come accustomed to. It is nice on one hand.. no homework or projects sucking the life out of me.. Now it is just house projects and work projects doing that. It was a trade of sorts. I am happy with my job and it is a lot less time consuming than school was.
I was on a walk with the dog last night and I was remembering back when I was in High School; it seems like a lifetime ago. A different town a different day. I remember lifting weights in my parents basement at 1:00am listening to the radio. It was just a neat time in my life. I didn’t have many worries or concerns; I was young.
I have seen 1:00am only a couple times since I have been out on my “own”. I think that is good having a schedule and such.
This post has nothing and everything to do with technology. Technology is a passion in my life and it has taken me to where I am today, but technology is playing a different role in my life recently. Since I have less time to see people that I have seen for years technology is a great way to keep in touch and see what people are up to. Actually a friend I had in High School contacted me on Facebook yesterday, which was pretty cool. I haven’t seen her in years. She has a cute kid.
I have been on Facebook, Myspace, and other social networks for many years, but I think their role has changed. I think when I was younger they were an addition to face to face encounters and now they take that place. It is good, I think, because otherwise I would not no communication with my hectic schedule and life.
I don’t know if I am growing up or growing old. Maybe neither. I am changing because life is change. It’s definitely not easy. There are so many sacrifices that I am not used to. With responsibility comes sacrifice to a degree. I gain so much from my sacrifice though. It’s a good trade.